hi ya'll. i'm in hiding. you've seen this before, and it's really only going to last about 24 hours, but i have let down at least 3 dear friends during that time and so the time isn't really the issue.
my belly hurts
i'm overwhelmed with chores
my parents are in town and while that's fun it's also draiiiinnning
mama needs some private time!
those all sound fine, right? but i Made Plans! this is where the therapy comes in. i'm going to spend most of this "me time" (that I bought by flaking out) by beating myself up about flaking out.
in algebra that looks like
(amount of free time available)- (time spent with friends) = me time
(amount of free time available)- (time spent with feeling terrible about blowing off friends) = 0 time for fun of any sort!
so really it's a waste of my friends' good nature if i don't hop on it and make something of this time. AND if i just got off my couch and go and play with them, it's likely i would be happier and more effective.
blerg.
the math makes it clear that the cause is not worth the effect. but while we're here, let's at least examine the factors
arthritis makes me tired
working and parenting makes me tired
i am seriously still carrying flu bits in my throat and belly
so don't beat yourself up, lady! but also don't make so many plans. flaking feels like ass.
love
bex
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