things i like about fall

I'm going to make a list to distract myself from the fact that days are shorter and the cold is coming and dressing (even at home, even in bed! Gah!) has to be more careful to prevent the sniffles & the chills. blech. So here's #1:
my pirate nephews could totally EAT yours.

la la la la songtime

you know how relationships have "songs"?

me & the liz had two: It Ain't Me, Babe and The stunner below. Hello? Yeah, and we knew it. But we seemed to like the irony.

Jim the thinker and I had a Very Special moment in the car one night (after I asked him to PLEASE turn off the Phlsh) with this one. Which is also quite telling. ("I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave"? yes. just wait a week or two, sir.) And I knew it when it happened.

(Baby) Boy toy and I have had a few moments: one with Mush@boom, a couple with R. K3lly (see, we have a well-rounded situation). But what terrifies me is that a major point of our 'thing' has been the movie Kn0cked Up. eeeeeeeeek

Saturday is on fire

Thriller in Dolores Park

Party @ HSJ

Dancing with emls & the Magdog

I wonder where I'll be?

my birthday's coming

and i want to go here for dinner. Mom & dick are coming to town, so they'll foot the bill.

I'm single, again, now, as usual, which makes the prospect of birthday dinner on Friday night with mom & pops a little depressing. goddamn. better no one than a lame one, i guess. and it's Berkeley, so who cares?

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UPDATE: We have reservations. FOR THREE. yippee! Chez Panisse. the mystery of the unknown, local, fantasy cuisine will be no more. i will know the glory of the fancy boho hippie pork chop--well except for the part where i don't really eat pork.

I'm also having some sort of Young People fun on Saturday. Maybe at my house. 11/17. after Pina Bausch (I have an extra ticket if you know any avante garde performance lovers). hello? this may be a delicious birthday after all.

maybe i'll go back on nerve...

I feel like dating again. the show's almost over, the house has its flow, i need a new [something] to occupy my time.

actually- that's the god quest, isn't it. OHHkay, blog. Thanks for the reminder.

I'll stay out of the personals for a few more minutes, then.

and call magdog. for tea. or yoga? yeeeeehaw.

...for it to ever last.

Billie said it too. /sigh.

need music!

dance music, rock music. no more emo indie rock. suggestions???

i'm getting a new job

It's a promotion, I think.

It's a raise, for sure.

It means I haven't had time to read my blogs ALL WEEK! can you believe it? I can't. who's getting fugged? how sore is Jenni from tech? These are things I do not know.

It's ok.

Cause all this work is payin off. I'm movin on up. This is what I was asking for at the hellhole last year, and now I got it without askin! I like it. Stay tuned for details.

what's awesome? soup

3 California red potatoes
2 California brown potatoes
6 easter egg radishes (2 for snacking with your co-chefs) from California
5 lbs carrots
1 gigantic yellow California onion
1 big hunk ginger, peeled & chopped
leaves of 1 bunch fresh Eatwell thyme
1/4" California olive oil
cumin
1 c. soaked garbanzo beans
asparagus broth
2 cups Oakland tap water
half a tetrapak "organic on sale" veggie stock
sea salt from France

sautee, cook, mash.

Delish. It's turning into my signature dish.

this post is for steven

cause cate blanchett could rock superbigrockstar.

oh hell yeah

i hit my head

i was leaning over, arranging my clothes in my bag. I stood up, but there was a wooden shelf between my folded and upright postures. it hurt, and i started crying.

i cried for half an hour.

then i went to asana class and started tearing up again...and then I was ok. but i called to get a ride home.

because i'm going to learn how to ask for support, dammit.

ps this is week 6 of medicine detox. i'm a little achy, and a little sleepy, but i also work hard, walk to work, and do yoga and dance regularly. in 2005 terms, we are mid-May. the blog shows that the pain (and the crying) hit right about now. This time i know I have to feel the old pain and the new, and I have to feel them til they're gone. And I have to ask for help and I have to not take care of the world. I think i'm on the right track.