but betty is nice

and so is lola

and so's the other person i hung out with yesterday

and so are nachos

and going for a walk

and wearing dansko's

also still with the big earrings.

and the yoga. meditation. rest. cashew ice cream.

{emag}, you're a prick

also- seriously? do you work 20 hours a week for $12/hr and you have the most expensive room in the house? and two cars? what?

and we're back

back to normal. back to complicated. back to the real shit.

commitment
goddammit

wish i had a youtube of essenbaby doing ASL for "complicated." that would be the perfect illustration.

anyway, my girlfriends are hot. and nice. and sean hayes, well he's a bit beasty with his scruffiness. but his voice is still sweet.

as was my meditation this morning. remembering to breathe.

who's drinking tonight? i'm coming to the city. wanna play?

what's the recipe

1) guru
2) new love
3) giant earrings

i'm happy again

really happy.

i got taken off Sustainable Ag

which, knowing my agricultural obsession (see links at right), you'd think would be kind of a bummer.

it's not.

It's a GIANT SIGH of relief. AAAH.

dammit, maggie

your wedding CD got me all gushy.

and last night i think maybe i fell. it was an accident. but it feels really good. and grounded, and now. did i mention good?

BLIK

this one?

or this one?

i <3 blik, and it's just the thing for my big blank wall. but oh the decisions!



in happier news, i'm not in pain today. why? no tellin. it's not like I got my medicine...(that's you, fucking Kaiser fucks. but let's not get started about health care.)

I had a fun trip! here's what happened:

saw crazypants! he's so damned smart. and nice. and fun. yay for genius friends everywhere.
had a productive conversation with my mom! used NVC! or maybe active listening! something. whatever it was, it got through. kinda.
watched Britney's pathetic VMA performance. Thanks, jetBlue, for saving me from actually watching that whole mess.

yay! happy weekend! everyone is married! more time for meditating!

because i live a varied existence

I'm also leaving town tomorrow. I'm gonna go to the art museum. and maybe see crazypants.

might have to cry again

my shoulder hurts so bad.

i can't get any medicine until next week.

i'm already about 5 days late on my prescription.

i like to pretend i'm not sick. and then it hurts SO BAD.

and then the tears come. all the pain of my life.

oops

i did it again.