whats going on

i was the golden child, the spoiled only girl, mom's confidante and closest friend, i had a tower room with flowery wallpaper and my mom all my own. and then she married this sad man with a sad, haunted house, and sad, haunted, addcited children, and i was the weird one. i was not the popular girl i had been a year prior, i was the outsider. i was trying to be someone but i didn't know who that person was.

and then when i was 21, after ten years of trying, and some drug use and eating disorders and promiscuity, my body quit, and started attacking itself.

and i looked really hot for a summer, except that i hobbled.

so six years later, as i try and rid myself of this monster, i am starting starting barely beginning to find the seed of it.

and mom is coming to visit me, and remind me that i'm still that golden girl i was.