back to the Real World

This is really cool.

http://throwplace.com/

one door closes

and another one opens, right? That's what the revolving door has shown me...but I'm having a lot of trouble closing this door. Maybe a safety net will convince me. Are you there yet, safety net?

dear closing door-

I don't want to be "one of your calls." I want my flirty text message to fire you up, and I want you to be able to respond. Within an hour or so. Not 7 hours later when you're making the rest of your calls, scheduling the rest of your commitments. I'm more than that. f u.

(& bye bye!)

ok, not all of them

I don't *really* hate men. just sometimes. it's not like I *really* trust women any more than I do men...I'm just more afraid of men. Women can be nasty and evil and cruel, but I understand that stuff. All men can do is reject. And that's much worse.

But I asked for what I need yesterday, and I got a grin and a delicious kiss and the affirmation I wanted, and I think i got some understanding and some appreciation too.
all for having the balls to ask for it.

I guess this "man" thing is making me grow after all. No wonder I'm so scared of em!

PS
In addition to the stuff above, this weekend I also got a stuffed penguin to sleep with. Oh the very very sexy 30s I've entered.

"do you learn from your mistakes?"

it's an interesting question. [boy] asked it in reference to my inclination to pour the kettle before the water had boiled. when he woke me up later and said "rebecca, you fell asleep in my bed," it seemed like there were a lot of further implications for me.

resolved: i will pay attention. i will learn something.

i will also remember that boys are fucking retarded and i sort of hate them. even as i want their [something].

oooohhhh. i see

i just found out why the strange asexual girl is always giving me the death vibe. It's cause I was crushing on her boyfriend. And he was flirting with me and well, because I'm not neutered like her.

They are tree people, and they are going to the warm springs to commune and stuff. And that's fine, because I am more of a beach girl anyway. You can have your slow talking, corn fed man, missy. and his nice hands. <>

endangered species ringtones!

ok, the premise is completely tragic, but this is AWESOME. I'm downloading Beluga whale right now.

http://rareearthtones.org/ringtones/

charmed life

zeitgeist on friday night
quickie visit to the art opening
delicious enchiladas, soul music, new drunk friends & sculptural wilted flowers
handpicked bouquets for sale at the BART station
(kissing in a secret cottage somewhere in oakland)
scones from around the corner, sharing tea
shovels, picks and a hoe from the tool lending library
flowers herbs and a blueberry bush from the garden store
make a bough for the front door, put up a gaudy new chandelier
nap
dinner party
raucous party
hilarious, brilliant friends
strange new people
singing
hugging, and some groping (gasp)
tea in the garden
hot pants
hard work with good friends
did i mention hot pants? style is for every moment
breakfast at 4:30
laughing, sweating, resting, stinking
to the movies on sunday night
ahhh

zeitgeist on a friday is better than any moment at sxsw. i just think it must be true.

and kissing, well. mmhmm