relationships are hard

every got-damned last one of em.

even more so when i'm off my game.

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update: this shit is crazy. i think god is testing me. i hope people go0gle that phrase and find this. not really. i think it's time to go back to @l Anon. i do not seem to know what "normal" is.

i don't need this now...

but i imagine one day i will be back in the world of condoms...and this is where I'm going:

http://www.french-letter.co.uk/

shades of this,

but for real life. oh yes.

and another

my mojo has returned.

i ALSO have a crush on an old dude i met at a c1imate change working group on Wednesday. I just g00gled "guy who invited me to lunch" + "wife"... because he's in a different demographic. which means he's probably married.

!!! no results. !!!

yes yes yes it's on. the mojo i mean. babyboy feels it too- he's calling me (usually it's the text or the in-person, but never the in between), chatting me; he's all over this. AND, finally, i also have birth control. as of 11pm last night (right before we blew a fuse in my flat- coincidence?) my fertility is reined in-- that is, until it's needed again. AMEN.

everything old is new again

getting what i want from mr rightnow. communication, appreciation, affection. An invitation, even! omg.

and: old crush is resurfacing. i'm happy about my unavailability that i might build a friendship in advance of building a fire.

regardless, one more friend with muscles is one more friend with muscles.

i is bitching out

got my period, got my bitch on.

maybe one day i'll be nice- what i really need is to be alone, but i'm soooo scared to be.

blogalot

Things to do:

1) learn guitar (this is an old one)
2) learn Hindi (a new one)
3) meditate e'ery day (borrowed from lots of masters)
4) not get a stabbing pain when i hear about engagements (an anti-blue)

also, continue laughing, eating good stuff (see here for lack of obsession here. amen), and enjoying the neighborhood. and the people who are suddenly in WALKING DISTANCE. can you believe it? i can. and i love it.

new era

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