today i can walk an almost normal pace.
yesterdy i was on 1/2 gear, the one before even first, where everyone looks at you funny cause why are you walking So Slow when you look totally normal? oh, is that why you're also crying?
last night i rolled over and kissed my lover. softly.
this morning i got up and out of bed, without worrying for 20, 30, 40 minutes, if i would be able to.
I haven't woken up crying for at least three nights.
the thing about Big Pharma is that they are making me feel like myself again. Fun, easy, and able. and i can' thelp but be grateful. so so so grateful. i even washed some clothes last night.
Postscript:
I also trudged home at five pm in tears, knowing i couldn't walk far enough to get to the movie i had hoped to see. and i had to call up for drug delivery, because there was no way i could climb the stairs. but the drugs kicked in over dinner, and then i made it home. and thank god for sexual helaing on top of it all.
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